20th February '07... Of All Days...
It didn't start off that way. I woke up great... really really great. Things just went awry as the day progressed.
It's circumstances that makes everything seem wrong. I hate myself for having no control over my emotions. I hate that I care too much. There are times when I wonder if things might be better if I put it all behind me. But I know that at the end of the day, I'll regret making that decision; I know that it's the emotions getting the better of me. Why can't circumstances work in my favour instead?..
I shouldn't be writing this entry, but I need to let it out. I can't do it openly, and this is my only outlet. Would I be too demanding to ask for more consideration for how I feel? Yes, I think it would be. I know I'd rather not be lied to. Finding that things have been hidden from me, or that I've been lied to hurts much more. The irony of it is that I almost always manage to find out when I've been lied to.
Tell me what to do... Tell me how I can detach myself, just enough that I don't let my emotions get the better of me. Tell me before I lose the one thing that means more to me than anything in this world...
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